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| Flowers from Jesus |
I am over this pandemic. For those of us who are on the front lines of this situation, it's been quite an experience. On a positive note, I get to work with some of the best people at our health department. They have stepped up in ways they never imagined they'd have to and have made this a true team approach. Still, it's been tiring. The thing is, the other things that we do don't stop. It's overwhelming. I don't say this for you to pity me... I just know many can relate when we are not in a pandemic.
A couple of weeks ago I was feeling so alone. Don't get me wrong, the Ewing tribe, my Jesus girls, my MCBC Tribe have all been wonderfully supportive. Yet, here I sat feeling totally by myself. I felt unacknowledged and frankly, sorry for myself. Yep, I am so totally human and a hot mess more often than not. The one thing I do have going for me is that I love to talk to the Lord. Prayer has become a part of my DNA. My go to most of the time. I am so weak and I've learned the hard way that I HAVE to draw my strength from my relationship with Him, so I am in constant chatter with Him. I have to read the "Be Still" scripture to remind myself to listen too. ;)
Sometimes I pray really wonky, selfish prayers and this day happened to be one of those days. I wanted to feel valued by Jesus. He understands me so well and he has often answered these prayers just to build this weak woman's faith. So, I prayed for flowers. I asked Jesus to send me flowers. I was thinking a sweet bouquet to brighten up my table. No biggie for the One who created flowers and owns the cattle on a thousand hills. But oh how my Lord loves to surprise and wow my little thoughts!
I enjoy taking a walk on the road north of my house. There is a couple there that have a most gorgeous yard. They labor intensively and the fruit of the labor is breathtaking. As I walked past their house I waved and then saw them waving me down upon my return trip. I stopped and they offered me some divided lilies and I said sure as these are favorites of mine. Two hours later I was telling a friend about the sweet gesture and the Lord gently reminded me - I gave you the flowers you asked for, my girl. I am sure my face was priceless as I realized He had answered my prayers. And in typical fashion, He one upped my request. Instead of a bouquet that will die in a few days, these flowers will bloom yearly as a reminder that He loves me forever. They will remind me that when I feel alone, He is ALWAYS just a prayer away. They will remind me that my seemingly unimportant requests are important to Him as He wants to build my faith, show me love, and remind me that I am His.
Jeremiah 29:12 - Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
